March Mayhem

Yes I skipped a month and I was going to edit it february's post and then post it up... BUT then I thought 'no its okay', this is my blog and I can do what I want, when I want. [Shamelessly Late]

Update on my Goals (please refer to my first post if you need to see what my goals were):

1. I went from 23% body fat on Jan 1st to 17.3% body fat on March 6th. My waist size keeps dropping and my weight has remained consistent at 127lbs. Honestly this one is going really well. Kelli Hairston has helped me with nutrition from program offered at Omnibarre. Its been so helpful honestly. It has been so hard!!! I cut out gluten, sugar,  and cheese. Often times I find it very difficult with a latin family whom respects my goals but loves to eat cheese on everything. Self discipline has been one of my biggest battles throughout this time. However I'm reminded that I want to do this for longevity of my body and being my best self for myself. I'll be fully honest with you... I have eaten gluten, sugar, and cheese daily still. HOWEVER I am extremely aware of the amount of things I am intaking. I've done better about gluten and cheese but sugar has been my hardest to escape. 

2. This one has been hard. The time of year this is in my life... My focus as been on my TDG CREW and their competitors, showcases, choreography, and etc. I don't mind giving them my attention but I do want to stay true to my craft as well. I've been collaborating with a friend on a long term project that will hopefully speak to the masses in a new way. That project is so exciting for me but I know it will take some time. I do have one video coming out soon that was me improving most of the time that is contemporary. I am nervous to see how that turned out but I can't wait.

3. Lately my books include a lot of poetry. I read Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur and I am filled with so much joy reading her words not because they are happy but because they are truth. She talks about break ups in ways I thought I was the only one. She talks about her love for her culture, being a woman, and being a human being with human being feels. When I was growing up, I wrote poetry so often. I was actually published in the 8th grade twice. TWO of my poems were by me but one was under my friends name because she didn't have a poem to turn in so I gave her one of mine. I knew the truth when it was published but she never said anything it. Not even sure if she cared that much... Oh well that was years ago. I've been writing a lot lately in my journal of things that maybe could be turn into poems. I'm interested to see if it turns into anything, however I am truly grateful for any encouragement from friends.

4. Still working on booking a commercial. I've gotten really close lately. I've had few call backs so I can feel it. However this is a whole new animal. I'm grateful for all these challenges though. I've had so much fun playing these characters. I'm really grateful for the guy I'm currently dating because he always manages to ask me the same question but it means so much to me... "Yeah? but did you have fun?" It gets me thinking on why I'm doing this. Its because I love it. Yes I want to be paid to do what I love and I know my day will come but that question is something that always puts me in a good mood.

5. I've attended a few plays because classmates asking me to join. Because of this I am able to meet other students of acting through association which is actually pretty great. I look forward to meeting more artist in this field. I'm really grateful for the people I have met. 

6. I've performed in two showcases so far and I've been asked to do a lot of other professional work but the time conflicts for shows are a big one. 

7. I've attended 2 plays out of my minimum of 3 plays so thats really great. I still am in need to attend some more dance showcases and I definitely will.

8. My New York City and Jacobs Pillow trip is still a fantasy of mine but not yet a plan. I would like to go towards the end of summer. Hopefully next week during spring break I can dedicate sometime to figuring out a game plan on what I need to do to make that possible. Questions I need to ask myself: Traveling by myself again? how much should I save? how much is stay? how much is tickets? how long I can go for? What shows can I see? how will I get around? 

9. I have been really good about doing this once a week to refocus myself. Its usually on Sundays when I find time for myself before my acting class. Even though I've been slightly distracted by a man asking for my attention (and I'm totally okay with it) and my career. I've find time to write in my journal, meditate, workout, plan out my meals, deep condition my hair, face mask, or just read. 

10. I have schedule multiple events to attend with friends during SXSW. I still call my best friend pretty often to keep her on schedule. I went to a boxing class with a co-worker/new friend which it was so much fun because we were encouraging each other the whole time! Nothing better than someone else being your hype man as much as you are for others. I attend church with my friend Risa just so I can see her at least once a week. I've had productive coffee sessions with some girlfriends on organizing our weeks or blogs. 

^^^ Going along with number 10... Today is International Women's Day. I'm beyond grateful for the women I have come across. 7 billion people in this world and I cross paths with you. You've inspired me, warned me, cared for me, loved me, pushed me, and shared something with me. I hope you are never oppressed. I hope you know you have a choice of your own body or of your own truth. I hope you find a voice for yourself and you are never sorry for it. I hope you stop pretending that you have it all together and accept that its okay. I hope you grow tired of pleasing people and choose to please yourself. I can only speak for myself when I say I am tired of society pressuring women to act or be a certain way. Here's to women who feel weak and to the women that feel strong. You are all worthy! Cheers to women raising up and encouraging each other and growing strong each day. 

Happy International Women's Day!